Listen In

I think I'm finally getting it.  How to listen to myself that is. I've been on this road of recovery, health and wellness for just under 4 years now. I can tell you one thing for sure, I am nautical miles ahead of where I was then. I started on this journey incredibly unhealthy. From the top down everything was in need of repair, and little by little as time has gone on I've been able to bring myself back to this new and improved self.  I could write 2000 words on how my body has changed but I'll save that one for another post. This is about listening and turning inward and that my friends has been and will be a journey of a lifetime. 

About 3 1/2 years ago I nose dived into yoga. I had been practicing since 1997 and for a while I had been very serious about it. Then my alcoholism took hold and yoga took such a back seat that it wasn't even in the same car๐Ÿ˜. 3 months into my sobriety I decided to take myself on a healthy vacation. I decided to go on a yoga retreat. It changed my life. Quite literally. I couldn't get enough of it!! After the retreat I joined Kula Yoga in Toronto and practiced as often as I could. I stopped going to my AA meetings because I now had yoga. It was a new type of healing. But because of my addictive tendencies I got addicted to yoga as well. I over did it and ended up injuring myself. I hadn't realized that I had torn my hamstring. I just kept practicing over it because I didn't have the language or body awareness. I wasn't listening to my body. I was just feeding another addiction... 

3 years has passed since that injury and I'm STILL dealing with it. I see an RMT once a week cause I have to. If I want to keep practicing as much I do I must take care of my body. I MUST LISTEN. I have grown a great deal in 3   1/2 years but I still have a long way to go and God willing I'll be on This journey of listening, learning & self-realization for many years to come.  Now, I understand my body. I have the language and the awareness. I still practice every day but now I know what to look for. I know how to modify and listen. This my friends, is my yoga. I listen loud and clear because my body is my best teacher and I know what happens when I don't pay attention..